I started my Sunday morning with signing up for a free trial for SundanceNow…let the tear-jerker-documentary-binge-festival begin! The first film on my list was, “You’ve Been Trumped” directed by Adam Baxter. You may have seen the ad for it on Instagram or Facebook: the film Trump doesn’t want you to see. Even before his decision to enter the US presidential election, Trump was dealing with protesters…however not in the US but Scotland. The film documents the ruthless construction by Trump for a luxury golf course & hotel. The plan failed sustainable development standards on numerous occasions, because it was ecologically unsound. It was for this reason it was deeply resisted by the majority of local residents. Despite protests, the plan to build eventually passed and the coastal wilderness, remarked as one of nature’s phenomena in Scotland was ultimately demolished. The film follows the stories of the local residents in Aberdeenshire who face security harassment, legal threats and the cutting off of water and electricity supplies due to attempting to protect their own land from Trump’s tiny greedy hands. The film highlights the incompetency that is our nation’s president based on his willingness to utter falsehoods (even pre-election), & severe lack of knowledge/ respect for science & the environment that due to his power & money leave huge irreversible damage to our planet. Definitely recommend this film!

The second film I watched (instead of doing homework) was “Equal Means Equal,” directed by Kamala Lopez. BRILLIANT! A kick ass,uplifting, while also heart shattering film about women’s status in America. Lopez spent six years studying issues women face: Foster Care + Child Sex Trafficking, The Law, Female Poverty, Pregnancy Discrimination, Reproductive Health Care, Domestic Violence, Wage Discrimination, Female Incarceration, Rape + Sexual Assault, International Women’s Rights. I know YIKES but despite the hard truth of the reality of these issues, the film presented solutions to combating them!  Without giving everything away here were a few main takeaways. The Constitution was written at a time where slaves and wives were viewed as white male property, it was not written to provide equal rights for all. This is why it says “all men are created equal” NOT human beings. If society has shifted (which it has) then there should be a shift in the federal law. So what do we need to ensure the rights of women no matter who is elected president in the future… CONSTITUTIONAL AMENDMENT! The ERA stands for the Equal Rights Amendment & states: “Equality of rights under the law shall not be denied or abridged by the United States or any State on account of sex.” This amendment was introduced in 1923 and continued to be fought for by first wave feminists in the 70s. In order for it to be ratified, it had to be signed by 38 states; in 1979, 35 states signed for its ratification…3 states short. A women in the film said where older generation feminists failed was not telling the story of ERA which virtually obliterated its existence, “we were so hurt when it didn’t pass we just went home & didn’t tell its story.” One of my favorite role models in the world, Gloria Steinem speaks several times in the film (obviously being one of the most famous feminist). Speaking to Lopez about the interrelationship of all the issues discussed in the film, Steinem says, “It’s a circle, like nature, like us it’s a circle. Patriarchy, nationalism, racism is a triangle.” Highly, highly recommend this film to everyone!


Did owning our sexuality, screw us?

I had a unsettling thought last night…what if the female sexual empowerment movement actually diminished the value of our sex in the eyes of men? This is not a bash on feminism piece, I am a proud feminist. As a 21 year old woman at a public university, ‘casual sex’ is ultimately normalized. I’m a fourth year undergrad & just ended a 3 1/2 year long distance relationship with my ‘high school sweetheart’. So I am a rare case of entering the college dating sphere as a senior but oh well, what can go wrong right? I have never been scared to be alone. I stayed in my relationship because I was deeply in love with him and I viewed it as not being a quitter. I put hard work into everything I do and a 3 1/2 LONG distance (700 miles) relationship is freak’n work! So I didn’t quit for as long as I could. But now skip ahead, 21 year old thrown into the gruesome dating world that only 16 year old me hazely knew. Now, I am three months in & let me tell ya, it is quite the roller coaster on your psyche. The notion that we can let ourselves be intimate with another. Be naked & completely vulnerable with someone else, but then be expected to not be personally offended when they toss you to the side without a second thought. I don’t know if this is only a lie women have to tell themselves that actually IS a lie & men actually have the ability to do this. OR if both men & women actually do not have the capacity to 100% separate their feelings with their sexuality. Are women’s hearts in their vaginas & men’s in their dicks? Or can only men separate emotion from sex? Or this just me, & I just need to up sexual maturity? Toughen up? I thought I was tough, yet I still carve some form of validation from the opposite sex. Whether through a text, snap, like, etc. & that carving/need makes me realize I can’t separate my heart from my vagina no matter how hard I front. As women, we should own our sexuality because we do possess the same sex drive as men, but we should be weary that it is a damn privilege for anyone we let into our lady gardens. In my moments of doubt & insecurity, I like to turn to the wise words of Tina Blecher:


Memorial Day

My friends & I spent our day off on one of my new fav hikes. We went to the famous Tamolitch blue pool & it was even more magical than the many seen posts. I personally am not a terrific hiker & def get grouchy if it’s too long or difficult; this was a very easy hike mostly flat, two miles there & two back, & ends at the highest point above the pool. The water is EXTREMELY cold so I don’t recommend going in. It was about an hour & twenty minutes outside of Eugene. I will be going back very soon.

How is it SO blue?!

Reasons why I came to UO

My high school was a big public school with a top football team. I applied to many universities but when I visited University of Oregon I had a movie-like moment that made me fall in love. (Bible, I am in no way exaggerating). I visited over March ’13 & came a day before my parents & stayed with my older sister’s friend. Naturally it was pouring outside & of course I was hopelessly lost somewhere on campus. All of a sudden the rain stopped & the sun was peaking out. At the same time I came across the marching band & they were playing Come on Eileen , oh I swear what he means. At this moment you mean everything. One of the most liked songs ever. That’s when I fell in love. Currently I am in my third year at UO & couldn’t be more happy. I am a journalism major with a focus on advertising. I love exploring to different waterfalls & hot springs & rivers that are all less than two hours outside of Eugene. The Willamette river is just before Autzen Stadium, is about a 15 minute walk from my house. I miss California of course & I know I will be living there after graduation. I believe everyone should live in a different state at least once in their life. Oregon has & always will have a special place in my heart.

& yes that is my yellow mini cooper.

OR 6
Silver Falls (Silverton, OR)
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Alder St./ 17th ave (Eugene, OR)
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Terwilliger Hot Springs
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Autzen, UO
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Willamette River (Eugene, OR)
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Proxy Falls (Mckenzie River, Cascades)



When in doubt, wear black

The moments when I’m actually receiving an income…about 96% of my paychecks go towards my love for clothes. I like someone to be able to get a sense of the type of lady I am by my outfit. I don’t like sticking to one categoric style…I like switching it up. I think every person looks better in black. Not a goth thing just a fact. Black apparel flatters all figures. I LOVE velvet, silk, suede, leather, soft denim (my Calvins jeans are the softest things in the world). My fav brands: Unif, Topshop, shoptunnelvision, Valfre, O-Mighty, Shop Demure, ShopJeen, Frankie Collective, Nasty Gal (could keep going). I have to be in a right mood for thrift stores or trading posts, I love them so much it just takes patience. The Melrose trading post & Rosebowl trading post in Southern California every sunday are where I’ve found some of my favorite things. When I’m crazy broke I sell my old clothes at Buffalo Exchange although I normally will take the store credit rather than cash. I shop basics from American Apparel & Brandy Melville but try to stray from cause I don’t like twinning when I go out. These are some of my fav outfits I’ve worn in the past six months:

American Apparel leotard/ Calvin Klein jeans 
Jacket from Goodwill Boutique in Portland, Oregon
$10 mobs wife faux fur (garage sale) Thousand Oaks, Ca
Unif ‘So Called Boot’/ dress-Tobi
shirt- American Vintage store (Van nuys, Ca)
Unif black tank, white Nike air force ones


Phone case- Valfre, turtle neck-Nasty Gal, Adidas sweatpants




flower power

I always get consumed with the desire to be in a field of flowers. On my bad days, my mind takes me here & I feel lighter. I am truly blessed to get to live in two beautiful states, California & Oregon.  It is impossible to NOT feel good sitting in the middle of a meadow of flowers. I grew up in Southern California (where my fam is currently) & I am a happy student at University of Oregon.  Botanical gardens, national parks, nature reserves, a random field off the highway, etc. the flower options are endless! Just a quick google of your locals & then get your flower power on:)

Antelope Valley California Poppy Reserve
Hendrix Park; Eugene, Oregon