Did owning our sexuality, screw us?

I had a unsettling thought last night…what if the female sexual empowerment movement actually diminished the value of our sex in the eyes of men? This is not a bash on feminism piece, I am a proud feminist. As a 21 year old woman at a public university, ‘casual sex’ is ultimately normalized. I’m a fourth year undergrad & just ended a 3 1/2 year long distance relationship with my ‘high school sweetheart’. So I am a rare case of entering the college dating sphere as a senior but oh well, what can go wrong right? I have never been scared to be alone. I stayed in my relationship because I was deeply in love with him and I viewed it as not being a quitter. I put hard work into everything I do and a 3 1/2 LONG distance (700 miles) relationship is freak’n work! So I didn’t quit for as long as I could. But now skip ahead, 21 year old thrown into the gruesome dating world that only 16 year old me hazely knew. Now, I am three months in & let me tell ya, it is quite the roller coaster on your psyche. The notion that we can let ourselves be intimate with another. Be naked & completely vulnerable with someone else, but then be expected to not be personally offended when they toss you to the side without a second thought. I don’t know if this is only a lie women have to tell themselves that actually IS a lie & men actually have the ability to do this. OR if both men & women actually do not have the capacity to 100% separate their feelings with their sexuality. Are women’s hearts in their vaginas & men’s in their dicks? Or can only men separate emotion from sex? Or this just me, & I just need to up sexual maturity? Toughen up? I thought I was tough, yet I still carve some form of validation from the opposite sex. Whether through a text, snap, like, etc. & that carving/need makes me realize I can’t separate my heart from my vagina no matter how hard I front. As women, we should own our sexuality because we do possess the same sex drive as men, but we should be weary that it is a damn privilege for anyone we let into our lady gardens. In my moments of doubt & insecurity, I like to turn to the wise words of Tina Blecher:



Reasons why I came to UO

My high school was a big public school with a top football team. I applied to many universities but when I visited University of Oregon I had a movie-like moment that made me fall in love. (Bible, I am in no way exaggerating). I visited over March ’13 & came a day before my parents & stayed with my older sister’s friend. Naturally it was pouring outside & of course I was hopelessly lost somewhere on campus. All of a sudden the rain stopped & the sun was peaking out. At the same time I came across the marching band & they were playing Come on Eileen , oh I swear what he means. At this moment you mean everything. One of the most liked songs ever. That’s when I fell in love. Currently I am in my third year at UO & couldn’t be more happy. I am a journalism major with a focus on advertising. I love exploring to different waterfalls & hot springs & rivers that are all less than two hours outside of Eugene. The Willamette river is just before Autzen Stadium, is about a 15 minute walk from my house. I miss California of course & I know I will be living there after graduation. I believe everyone should live in a different state at least once in their life. Oregon has & always will have a special place in my heart.

& yes that is my yellow mini cooper.

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Silver Falls (Silverton, OR)
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Alder St./ 17th ave (Eugene, OR)
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Terwilliger Hot Springs
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Autzen, UO
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Willamette River (Eugene, OR)
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Proxy Falls (Mckenzie River, Cascades)